Friday, April 14, 2017

Couple of don't give a shit days

I have them and I don't like admitting it. I gave up a couple of days with tomfoolery and now back on the wagon. I've even been smoking, which I have to stop right now. So I will.

Fasting was 249 this morning, but post breakfast was 209 after a fairly low carb breakfast. I did have corned beef hash, but only a half cup. That was tough as dog food is amazing. I did the right thing and I'm feeling pretty decent about it. I'll have a light lunch because I ate breakfast so late, and will not stay up late tonight.

I'm going to need all the strength I can muster today. Food - good choices. Smoking - not an option.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Doing it right

Tried a different snack last night - apple and cheese. FBS was 142. Holy cow! Two days in a row of acceptable (for me) fastings!

There is an odd side effect of blood sugars in control - boundless energy. It's bizarre and it's like a full body rush. I'm hoping this calms some over time as my body becomes used to a lower blood sugar. I know my eyes will go blurry for a little while during the blood sugar lowering period; they always do. It's like the opposite of high blood sugars causing blurry vision. Yep, I'm lucky like that.

I have plans to eat well today and test often. I can't be cocky and say I have this in the bag, but it's pretty obvious that proper eating is making a huge difference. Low carb, for the most part, and high protein. I'm not worrying about fats as they help level things out a bit.

11:30 p.m. Binged. For Christ's sake. I binged. It wasn't 100% awful, but the fact that I did it was 100% awful. Pumpernickel toast and leftover (not a full pint!) of Pralines and Cream ice cream, and 6 mini Peppermint Patty candies. Shit, shit, shit. I wasn't even going to write it down, but I did it and I have to own it and maybe I need to even process this stupidity to avoid doing it again.

I'm curious now what the fasting will be after a day of semi perfection.

I fucking binged.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Small victory

This is applying myself will do. Look at today's fasting! 113. What has changed? High protein, high vegetable content, and fairly low carb. Well, really low carb. Awareness of every damned carb that goes in my mouth. And, an evening snack of peanut butter on potato bread. I know that sounds weird, but potato bread doesn't mess with my overnight numbers, as I'm slowly proving to myself. Until I'm sick of it, I will continue to try that as a snack to keep my liver and pancreas happy overnight. The mystery continues to unravel as to what works and what doesn't work for me. I'm going to try yesterday's breakfast but with a different type of bread and see if it makes a difference. Dr. K asked that I keep my late night meal as the lowest carb meal of the day. That doesn't allow me to go nuts during the day, though!

2:40 p.m. Dammit, I had a low while I was out shopping.  I did check my BS before I left, but I guess I was gone too long. I looked for the least offensive candy bar I could find and got a small Hershey with Almonds. It did the trick, but my BS before lunch was 217. The power of sugar. Sigh. The war continues.

Monday, April 10, 2017

Battles along the way

I got up at 3:45 this morning to respond to Mother Nature and again, decided to take my middle of the night blood sugar - 115! How amazing is that? I had a piece of bread with peanut butter as my snack last night. Nice balance of carbs and protein and maybe enough to keep my blood sugar/liver from going nuts. One battle acceptably handled. Let's see if it continues.

Fasting this morning was 150. That was 5 hours after the 115 and no intake at all. Do I have overnight syndrome or what?
I didn't have time for breakfast this morning, so am having brunch today. We'll see how the numbers flow. Insulin, glimiperide, and Metformin on board. Sigh, so many meds! I'm still on the higher dose of glimip. I'll keep with it until the sugar is down over a period of time. Now we wait for the after brunch rise and my experiment of potato or rye bread in terms of rise in sugar.

Sunday, April 9, 2017

This is war

Yep, I'm officially at war with my type 2 diabetes.

I was diagnosed with PCOS in my very early 20s. My mother had diabetes. I believe one of her parents had it. A sister had gestational diabetes. At around 40, I was diagnosed with the insulin resistance that goes along with PCOS and prediabetes. And now, 20 years later, my type 2 diabetes, diagnosed maybe 15 years ago, my diabetes has become an asshole. And it's time to take it down.

It's like this cunning little critter moved in with me and sat quietly, rubbing its hands together while going through its evil snicker routine, and waited until now to say "fuck you, Donna!" My T2 is here and I have to deal with it.

This guy calls it "diabesity" and is dealing with it on his own terms. I want to read more of what he has to say for sure. But he reminded me it's war. Truly time to be on the offensive AND defensive.
Yesterday, I brought to you the middle of the night gobsmacker of a blood sugar. Over the day, I brought it down with proper eating and medication. Then before bed last night, my BS was up again with no food for 4 hours. And WTF? I wake up with a 294? I know I have overnight syndrome stuff happening, but am not sure how to deal with it. Slowly again today, the number is coming down rather than going up, which means I'm doing something right today, but I need to identify the overnight enemy and put the kibosh on that sucker.

This is war, folks. Yesterday, I was not happy and kind of down in the mouth. Today, I'm pissed.

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FBSs suck

Not sure why, but my fasting blood sugar was 294 this morning at 8:30 a.m. (Post breakfast was 284, so that's good.) Last night at 9 p.m., I had some saltines and peanut butter and then later, had 2 deviled egg halves. I went to bed at 1, so there were 4 hours between the saltines and bedtime. And, the carbs for the snacks added to 30. Though paired with the two proteins, the carbs apparently took precedence. I did not get up in the middle of the night to take a random BS reading, but maybe that's not a bad idea. I can get back to sleep easily, and it will give me a better read on what's working and what's not. Maybe it will take a couple days to get over the 503 overnight reading a day ago?

On the planning side, I cleaned out the kitchen freezer and will aim for the garage freezer later today. I'm cooking chicken tenders for quick grab snacking.

Yep, another day, diabetes has me, but I'm tough, I'll have it before you know it.

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Miserable numbers, better day

Lucky German shepherd owner that I am, I got up at 3 a.m. to go outside. I figured that since I was up, it might be fun to see a middle of the night blood sugar. Boy, was I wrong.
503! My endocrinologist had said that my middle of the night sugars were probably high because of my snack and high carb dinner habits. I had no idea it was that high. I watched My 600 Pound Life a couple days ago. The subject of the show was 700+ pounds and addicted to pain killers, and in severe denial. The doctors gave him chance after chance after chance to no avail. The main doctor of the show, Dr. Now, took this guy into a room with a full length mirror and had him look at himself. He was a mess - hair all askew, belly hanging to his knees, legs that were huge with lymphedema, and he hadn't seen himself in forever. It was the thing that woke him from his denial coma, at least for that moment.

I feel like I just had that moment. I read about diabetic coma this morning and now realize that if I had gone into the 600s while sleeping, no one would know. The fasting BS this morning wasn't great, but it was a fair distance from the 503. 503! I've totally been gobsmacked, as I mentioned in my spreadsheet entry from this morning. I'm still processing how I could have allowed it to get this bad.

Diabetes. For me, I don't feel it. I do feel lows and they're miserable. Lows are caused by the medication that I take and I keep wanting to lower that medication, but I have a disease. Yes, I'm admitting I have a disease. And I need medication for it. Part of that package is avoiding lows by scheduling proper eating during the day, adjusting carb intake to match up with the action of the medication. This is my mission for the upcoming days.

To that end, my plan is to have a very low carb breakfast, dinner, and evening snack (if I have one), and if I have extra carbs, they will be at lunchtime or afternoon snack to stay in sync with the medication. I will test before and after meals to detect patterns and then put that knowledge to use.

I had bad knees and had them replaced. Pretty much action A causing reaction B. Diabetes might be even more important than that. I have some processing to do and acceptance and stop this denial shit.

Breakfast was right on target. My post breakfast BS was 12 points lower than the pre breakfast. Eggs, cheese, asparagus, and bacon. The most carbs were in the asparagus! Anyway, even one meal makes a difference.

I may post meals for a while to, again, detect patterns and provide some accountability to myself. This is going to be a lifetime change combining medication, paleo, LCHF, and good sense when it comes to carbs.

Lunch wasn't very exciting, but it was okay. SF Jello, cottage cheese, and less than half an apple cubed. Had a half of Premier Protein bar. I really need to overhaul my pantry for sure. I thought I had Atkins bars, but I don't. I may lay off bars completely. We'll see.
Numbers are improving as the day goes on. The blue column is average. It will take all day to recover from the 3 a.m. I'll get it down today and keep it down overnight. Wish me luck.

No picture for dinner, but it included fried cabbage and onions, a little bit of pasta, and a couple deviled eggs. I'll decide later whether I want a snack or not. And for the record, I was at 180 after lunch, so my plan is going to work. It will take a couple days to truly normalize those numbers.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Day -2 of hard core

Today is keeping track of blood sugars while I eat well. I may end up not eating so well due to the amount of junk in the house, but I'm counting every calorie, carb, and protein, as well as checking BS after meals.

Tomorrow will be even closer to the goal of LCHF. Sunday is day 1 and I'm ready to go.

Next step, checking after lunch sugar. I expect it to be a bit high due to eating out, but it will go down due to my increasing glimiperide. Up to 3 mg for now.

And on we go.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Diabetes in the front seat

HgbA1c 9.6

Way too high.

Low carb/high fat, lowest carb meal at dinner. Test before and after meals. Low carb snack at night if any snack at all. Increase glimiperide, which sucks because I have to be more intensely aware of intake - what and when. See trends. Continue what works.

Here we go.