Friday, January 31, 2014

Whole30, Day 6

-0.2 pounds. I'll take it!

The deep hole I was in yesterday is gone. My mojo is firmly in place. Not sure where the little bugger was hiding, but he found his way back into my head.

It's odd going through evenings/nights of "want, want, want!," but it's a reality for me and one I'm just going to have to learn to live with until I make it such a habit to not give in that the inner addict will stop talking to me. Plus, today is quit smoking -1 day. I'll have new challenges in the upcoming days, but for some reason, I feel more than prepared and eager to make this happen.

I used this as my jumping off point - I varied it very little. I used chopped mushrooms, chopped asparagus, chopped green onions as the vegetables. There was no room for spinach! I used silicone muffin cups lined with prosciutto, added the vegetables to the 8 cups, then poured 4 whirled eggs in (not much, just enough to get some in each cup). I baked at 350° for about 20 minutes. I wanted a tangy/sweet side, so strawberries it was. This was a super thumbs up breakfast for sure. I recommend it to anyone doing Whole30 or paleo or really to everyone. No special diet required. 

Thursday, January 30, 2014

What a food junkie thinks

  • Okay, I've done well all day. I can have just one of ______ (Doesn't matter what it is. If I have just one, it will turn into way more than one.)
  • If I have a cheese stick tonight, I'll eat a little less tomorrow. (Never works. Not an option!)
  • I want some chocolate, so I'll just eat a handful of chocolate chips. (That turns into a small bowl of those same chips. They're paleo friendly, but not W30, so off limits.)
  • Richard has gone to bed. He'll never know. (I bet he would know.)
  • Hey, I still have those yogurts in the refrigerator. They need to be eaten. Just one won't hurt. (I need to toss those out!)
  • No one will see. (I will see.)
  • 7-11 is only a mile. (I already know the evening staff by name and Renee, who works there, has been cheering me on and looks at me sideways when I come in to buy shit.)
  • If I eat it tonight, I'll be clean all day tomorrow to make up for it. (How fucked up is that?)
  • And 1001 other stupid thoughts that lead to places I do not want to go. 

I'm fine with not having any further snacks. I had 100% fruit thingies and that's it. Let's go day 6!

Whole30, Day 5

Weight down 0.6. Gotta kick it into gear. I have an official DietBet weigh-in in a week and I'm not at 3%. I'll get there. I caved last night and had a no-no. I'm going to move on, though. I have been 100% okay other than that. Not even any dreaded plantain cakes.

I started with a couple patties of farm fresh sausage and some broccoli. When the sausage was defrosted and mostly cooked, I cut it up into small pieces and finished cooking.

Then came the eggs whirled with spinach. Yahoo! An almost quiche. 

I've been thinking about my addiction today. I went to Walmart with my husband to get some vegetables and to take something back. I admitted to him as we walked around that the honest truth is when I go in there, I know where the donuts are, where the ice cream is, where the oatmeal cream pies are, where the candy is, and which brand is here and which brand is there, and where the coolers with single sodas were kept. It's a sad fact that I walk into Walmart and immediately think, "Must eat ALL the junk food."
We talked as we walked about how it is an addiction and how it's not worth giving in to the cravings. I want 180 so bad that I can taste it. There's one way to get there - stay true to myself. That's a loaded phrase that includes sticking with this W30, exercising, remaining on a close-to-W30 food plan, getting good sleep, and socializing and hobbying. 

To my goals' ends, I had a great dinner. I cut up and microwaved a pear with cinnamon, then added a splash of coconut milk. YUM! More sausage and a handful of asparagus. 

This is day 5. I want to reach Day 30. 

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Whole30, Day 4

Lost track of blogging yesterday. Here's dinner:
It's the last of the icky parsnip/broccoli mash with a lovely piece of rainbow trout. I also finished up the fruit blend I had made with apples, sweet potato, and cranberries. 

Now, back to today! Day 4 and ready to go. We got 3" of snow last night, which is a lot for around here. I blew all the snow off the deck and played with the dog for a while. She loves it! I didn't want to make breakfast, but I did:
Hand cut zucchini, eggs, and pancetta. I shared the pancetta with the dog. It's remarkable that I hand cut the zucchini. I usually use some kind of fun tool to slice it. I got a notice that my Tessamae's ketchup had shipped. I am ready for it to arrive. I'm not a fan of plain eggs!

How beautiful is that? Pineapple, Nick's Sticks, lettuce, and coconut milk. Amazing. 

I saw photos of roasted onions on the Post 30 Paleo Facebook page, and just had to give them a try. I added broccoli, olive oil, ghee, and Bavarian seasoning and baked along with the second half of the time the turkey needed to be in the oven. I will 100% do this again and again and again. The turkey was the bomb. Again, taking a page from the P3P FB page, I brined a bone-in turkey breast half in water, onion powder, garlic powder, a few bay leaves, and a bit of salt and pepper for 24 hours. I used some of the brine to inject the meat itself before roasting. I used a baking bag. Their instructions call for some flour in the bottom of the bag to help keep it from exploding. Okay, that was enough for me. I got out the sweet potato flour and put a tablespoon in as instructed. I definitely did not want to have a turkey explosion! And voila!
The broccoli/onion blend before. 

And look at how nicely the veggies are browned on the edges! I snagged a small piece of turkey skin, but it's under the broccoli. This is the lunch sized plate and I filled that sucker up. So much flavor. 

Day 4 has been my friend. I've tried a few new things and all went well this time. I have the broccoli that I did not cook for tonight chopped and ready to saute in the morning with sausage or pancetta. Who knows which way I'll feel like going?

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Whole30, Day 3

Weight -1.6 pounds. That's more like it. I know I'm not supposed to weigh, but pffft. I'm gonna. I don't get derailed when the numbers don't go down and I do get pumped up when they go down, so it's a keeper habit for me.

We're in for some kind of weather. We live on a weather line of sorts and we never know what's going to happen until it happens. Regardless, my household is ready for a few days of whatever. Last winter was so mild; it's almost refreshing to have real weather!

Breakfast was okay. The pancetta was overcooked as was the zucchini, but I ate it anyway. I was hungry, but it just didn't hit the spot at all. After the pool, I'll probably have some pineapple to round it all out. 
I used this on the eggs and it didn't help. It's a blend of walnuts, yeast, and some spices. It doesn't really taste like cheese, but it adds a little flavor. Today, though, the royal we are not impressed.

Monday, January 27, 2014

Whole 30, Day 2

No weight loss, but that's okay. I'm not supposed to weigh anyway. The lump in my throat is considerably less noticeable, but still there. I am 100% convinced it's related to eating gross foods. I'm still in the totally confident space and I'd like to stay here. I slept the sleep of the dead last night. My staying up late the night before day 1 was maybe not my best decision, but it is done and done. I'm proud and empowered having made it through day 1. On with today!

Very weird vegetable choice this morning. I had about half of the green beans and mushrooms cooked with balsamic from last night, so tossed that in a pan after the pancetta was done, and added the last of the bag of spinach. After that was done, I added a couple eggs to the pan. So, breakfast had a weird pancetta/vinegar/spinach flavor. Not bad, but not worth revisiting. The avocado is the last of one that ripened in about 5 minutes! 

Gympact has a vegetable/fruit pact option now and I'm kicking it. You take pictures of your fruits or vegetables, send them in, and after you make your pact (mine is 7 a week - easy peasy), you earn a little money. If you don't make your pact, you have to pay. I can't see me ever not making it. 

The pool today was great. We did all sorts of different stuff and I truly feel like I've worked out. I let the instructor know that I was weaning off of class and into laps, but that it's hard because I love the people I've met. I did not stop on the way home for a water. I felt it was in my best interest to come straight home, so I did. And oh my, check out this lunch.
This was a total experiment based on something a friend posted in the Post W30 Facebook group. Apples, Japanese sweet potato, 2 orange juice ice cubes, freeze dried cranberries, cinnamon, and some water. I brought it to a boil and then simmered until all ingredients were squish tender (about a half hour). I added a blop of coconut cream to give it a little gusto. I pan fried the leftover steak (it was already cooked so all it needed was a good warm-up). This is a Whole30 success. You can use fruit juice for cooking, so that's good. I still have two trays of the orange juice cubes! I keep thinking I'll use them with chicken, but it's always forgotten. One of my prior observations was how brown everything was. Now I experiment a little more with green and red, and my meals are definitely not all brown. Day 2 continues. 

Parsnips and broccoli really don't make a great mash, but I tried it! The chicken, on the other hand, was great. It was dusted with Greek seasoning and baked in foil. I opened the foil for the last 15ish minutes and broiled to completion. I have half of it left for a Waldorf salad tomorrow. I'm going to use coconut milk instead of mayonnaise and see how it goes. 

Day 2 has gone well. The Nick's Sticks (beef sticks) came today. Richard and I both tried one and they were pretty good. You expect them to taste like a Slim Jim, but they don't. They're not seasoned quite as heavily and don't have the squish in the center that I can't stand. Overall, I think I like them. I need a grab protein and these should do. I cook 90% of the time, but there are moments when I just don't have what it takes to prepare a meal for whatever reason. Protein is important not only for Whole30 and paleo, but for my diabetes. 

Let's wave buh bye to Day 2!

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Whole30, Day 1

Baseline weight established. Meals planned for a week. Graphics for my FB photo made. Okay, so that one is not so important. I feel strong and determined, and ready for my body to feel right again.

What will I lose doing a Whole30?
A little weight. That lump in my throat.My growing fatigue. Inflammatory processes that tend to hang out in the winter.

What will I gain doing a Whole30?
Self-respect. Improved everything. Nothing left to add after improved everything. That about covers it!
Starting the day off right. Farm fresh sausage, zucchini sauteed in ghee and with Sunny Paris spice blend, and a small bowl of strawberries with a bit of coconut milk. 

And then there was lunch.
Organic compliant hot dog, carrots with a dab of ghee, and pineapple with coconut milk. I also had a few walnuts to top it off. 

A fruit thingie for snack, and after dinner, peaches. 
I cooked up the tail of the loin with mushrooms and green beans (way too much; had to save some for breakfast), along with left over sweet potato/rutabaga mash and some avocado. 

Day 1 is in the books. I'm tired from staying up late last night. I have a lump in my throat that has been there for a couple weeks. I hope to remedy both situations in the next couple days. 

It's also 5 days, 3 hours, 56 minutes and 7 seconds until quit smoking day. 

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Whole30 -1

I'm very excited about starting my W30 tomorrow. This time, it's mine. I even ordered W30 compliant ketchup. That's serious! :)

I'm ready. I feel strong and feel that my recent struggles with stick-to-it-ness are no longer with me. I hope to receive the okay to take long walks again after I see the orthopedist this week. There's nothing stopping me in any sense of the word with this Whole30. I have the pool, my DVDs, my weights, and hopefully walking, all of which I adore. Walking grabbed me this fall and hasn't let go. I used to walk miles every day and loved having that back in my life.

On the Zen side, I have been working on finishing incomplete projects and that includes a quilt that I'm actually quilting rather than tying! It's almost like a 1000-piece puzzle that is set up and ready to be worked on every time you walk by. This time, it's not puzzle pieces; rather, I pick up the needle and thread and do a couple lines of stitching. I have a long way to go, but I'm okay with that! I have finished one small quilt, a Halloween piece, and have a pair of slacks to complete. Beyond that, I'm free to start new things (Robin's mother's quilt, I think, will be first).

Ronnie's Whole30 turned into a Whole29, but who cares? I'm so proud of him. He and Steven wanted some drinks tonight and they're having them. He and Dr. H are such inspirations for me. My other son and my daughter are also getting back to exercise. My daughter's ankle has healed enough for her to go to the gym again and she's urging along her twin. It's a good time in the Apperson family.

My trip to Whole Foods and the farmers market today filled in a lot of the blanks, and now it's just a matter of making it so. Yup, I got this.

Friday, January 24, 2014

Prepping for W30 number 2

All the junk food is officially out of the house. I had an amazing breakfast way too early, then had the last of the chocolate for my snack with coffee later. What a way to live, huh? I could have thrown it out, but I didn't want to. Eyes wide open.

I have moved up the start date of Whole30 to this Sunday, January 26. Why wait till February 1? Today's as good a time as any, well, Sunday is.

My Whole Foods trip is tomorrow. There are a couple Tessamae products I'd like to have on hand (they make ketchup too!); their products are W30 compliant. I'm also on the hunt for non sugar cured salami or other hard sausage that comes sliced or that I can slice myself. I'm thinking it doesn't exist, but I'll keep looking.

The rest of this day is compliant based on what I have planned. I'm sure I will go out to lunch tomorrow, but I see no reason to keep it as close to W30 as possible.

I got this. I want this. I need this.

Lisa G, if you're reading, I'mma lean on you :)

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Had a thought

I went to Dallas in June/July for a family funeral. I was there for a week. Though I initially tried to continue paleo eating and life, it didn't end up that way. I've been scratching my way back to me since then with continued exercise and primarily paleo eating, but my sleeping went to shit around then. We stayed up late in another time zone and I don't think I ever tried to recover my earlier bedtime. Hmmmm. This isn't a revelation, but it is a reminder to me where the up and down paleo came from. It's been under my control the whole time; I started making questionable choices in Dallas and they have cascaded from there.

Coming out of a deep, dark hole

What happens to a person when they try every single day and by the end of the day, don't care enough to keep it going? That's the bazillion dollar question that would solve all the world's ills, or at least a lot of ills related to wanting to lose a little weight. I'm as healthy as they come. All of my blood work indicators, except the hemoglobin A1c (a biggie!), are in perfect order. During my visit with my doctor this morning, he suggested that yes, I took some time off, but now to get back into it. I agree and agreed with him at the office.

Now comes the hard part. Getting my head out of my ass and making it so.

My first step out of the hole is going to bed at 10 p.m. and no later than 11 p.m. on "late" nights.

I'll ponder my other steps as I move forward with the first goal to be fully Whole30 by February 1, if not sooner, and to quit smoking on February 1 in conjunction.

I've continued to exercise on a very regular basis and I eat properly until late nights. It would seem to me that my first step is the right step.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Don't stop starting

I made that last night. Not very paleo. I used applesauce and water instead of the ingredients it called for and added Enjoy Life chips to the top before I baked it. I ate quite a bit and threw the rest away. It's not the end of the world to screw up, but my throat is full even 13 hours later. Not my proudest moment, but I have to own it. 

No photo for breakfast, but it was great - zucchini, pancetta, and eggs. 

 I need to learn to take more pride in myself. 

Sunday, January 19, 2014

I hate my scales

The stupid scales say I'm up 3 pounds in ONE DAY. I'd say that's incorrect. Besides all else, I've been exercising and eating right. No way I can gain that in one day. I shall ignore it and move on. To that end:

A 5 for sure. Pancetta (shared with Richard) and spinach/eggs. It fit the bill perfectly this morning. Going to see American Hustle later, and I have cherries ready to take with me!

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Adding a new goal

It doesn't get much better than this - Virginia ham, asparagus, zucchini, and eggs. It's not a 5, but it's close!

Yesterday was a day off. I didn't go too nuts, but I was totally off road. It was planned, it is over, and now I move on. I had fasting blood work drawn yesterday. The tech got me pumped up. We talked about food for a bit and my plan to get a Starbucks breakfast sandwich. One thing led to another and we ended up on the topic of paleo. She told me she was in her second week of her second Whole30. I remembered then that of course, she works for my doctor's office, and he's all about the Whole30. Apparently, most of the staff is on Whole30, Whole30/paleo, or a loose interpretation of paleo itself. 

This morning, the box of Krispy Kremes on the counter didn't even talk to me. There are 2 left and they're for Richard. I bought him a package of cookies that I don't care for and I bought me a container of walnuts. I'm good to go for today. 

I just walked a brisk half-mile. I'll do a DVD later, but I felt the need to move around a bit. And here's my new goal - February 1, I will no longer smoke, socially, with coffee, with beer, nada. It's time. I've been playing with cigarettes again for about 2 years since Lindsey died, and it's time to move on from those too. I have a 3-year-old knee and a 2-year-old knee to take care of, a 1-year-old German shepherd, a husband and 3 kids to be here for, and last, but not least, I have myself. I've been exercising like a maniac over the past couple years and smoking isn't helping. Interesting that I've fixed everything that's "wrong" with me other than that! So, each day, I'm going to post my quit meter at the bottom of the blog. Cheer me on as I become smoke-free once more. My dog dying was a catalyst; it was not a cause. I'm in control of this, not some stupid tobacco product or food or any other outside influence. 

I will quit smoking in 1 weeks, 6 days, 14 hours, 27 minutes and 24 seconds.

That's what the quit meter looks like. It's a little program that I have on the computer that is hot keyed. Let's watch it grow while I shrink :)

No photos, but had some plantain cakes with organic/sugar-free apple butter for snunch. Snack + lunch = snunch? I dunno. I just made it up. Dinner is planned and I feel pretty good about it. Plus, I get to sit and type on a computer that is in front of a window that looks out onto my bird feeders - lots of visitors today. 

Greek yogurt, banana, and strawberry. Just the perfect snunch ending for after swimming laps and pool walking for 40 minutes. I'll be sore tomorrow from the swimming, but it's a good sore and I don't mind so much. What I also did was leave the smokes at home. Why bother with them when I'm working so hard to improve everything else in my life? 

Mashed cauliflower with the last of the mini potatoes, hamburger with almost the last of the goat cheese, and leftover vegetables from this morning's breakfast. I use ghee and coconut milk in my mashes, and the flavor is so wonderful, be it cauliflower, rutabaga, or even the occasional potato. 

The night is ahead and I'm sure it will hold a few challenges, but I'm fortunate to have mondo resolvo today. 

Thursday, January 16, 2014

And... we're back


I have found that if I don't take photos and blog during this process (weight loss, healthier living, paleo, exercise, etc.), it's not in the front of my mind where it should be. It's easier to go overboard when you're not mindful of your intake and exercise. So, back to the images and words with me. It's my time to reflect on my choices and make informed decisions about what comes next, what works, what doesn't work, and more. Let the introspective writing, honesty and commitment, the mindfulness and self-awareness begin.

I found a small bag of Virginia ham that I had chopped and frozen  at Thanksgiving for just such a morning as this. I sauteed some asparagus, added the ham, then added eggs to set as an omelet. I put the avocado on top as I ate it and what a wonderful breakfast it was. I'd rate it a 5, but there were some under cooked spots of egg that sort of grossed me out. 

Thought of the morning - Why is a fried egg so good, but when you find bits of fried consistency eggs in your scrambled eggs, it's so icky? These are the things that keep me awake at night. 

'Nuther note. I've had a sick dog for the past two days, so didn't go to the pool. I'll be picking one of my DVDs today and getting busy. The dog is now fine and I need to get my arse out of this chair.

I got outside for a bit and walked about a half-mile in the snow. It's not all that snowy, but the novelty makes it sort of fun. 

Fresh berries with some Greek yogurt. I have a few containers to finish up. When they're gone, I'm done with it for a while again. It doesn't hinder the weight loss, but it doesn't fit my preferred foods template. Nice snack. Very nice snack.

Just finished the 2-mile Walk Away the Pounds DVD. It was a wee bit harder than I thought it would be, but that's okay. A little extra push is a good thing. The dog and I shared a couple of cheese sticks (again, not paleo, but needs to leave my refrigerator!), and I'm good to go till dinner. 

Leftover spaghetti sauce, broccoli slaw and mushrooms sauteed, and too much Parmesan on top. I forgot to take the picture at first. Oops! The sauce was better tonight for sure. I'm not sure I'll do broccoli slaw as he base again, but it was pretty good. It was crunchier than I'd prefer. 

I finished off the day with a snack similar to the earlier one. I added a few Enjoy Life chips and walnuts, and felt like I was eating something super special. Wait. I was eating something super special. 

Reflections: Back to blogging and pictures today. It will take me a little while to get back into the rhythm of photographs and writing, but I'll get there! I think this is a much better way for me to remain accountable for my food and exercise, and life in general. I'm feeling pretty derned good about things right now and want to keep this feeling close. 

Monday, January 6, 2014

Blog hiatus begins now.

As I told my Facebook paleo friends, I'm focusing less on photos and writing and more on the before and after of my meals. That means I'm spending my time planning, cooking, eating, and cleaning up around meals.

I will be focusing also on weight loss right now. That will entail eating as close to W30 as I do (you can see what I eat in my shades of paleo post) and continuing to exercise, with the added emphasis on getting to bed at a decent hour and not over snacking at night. I want to continue rediscovering my bliss, and that means less time at the computer.

I will still be active on the Facebook page and on the DietBet site. I'm in no rush. I'm taking my time. I'll be stopping by here from time to time, but my body and my health will not allow me to hang at the computer all the time.

Happy 2014, everyone! May your shade of paleo take you far into the world of health and wellness.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

A Saturday that's looking good

Yesterday was off day. I try to keep my off days to Friday or whichever day I plan on staying up late. It's not the best of primal plans, but it's my bicycle. My Harry and David's pears arrived today. Now I wait a day or so for them to ripen. I put four in the frig to delay ripening. They're going to make great snacks!

I have just enough kale left for tomorrow's breakfast. Today, I paired the eggs and kale with avocado and pancetta. There's about a tablespoon of goat cheese crumbles in there too. 

For lunch, the last of the former pot roast with tomatoes to which I had added sauteed chicken and haricots vert. I drained off all the liquid and had a nice ragout with tons of taste and flavor. A great way to mix up a little of this and that and make something new. 

Friday, January 3, 2014

Welcome back kale!

I've not had my old friend, kale, with eggs in a while. It's time! I found some in a small quantity recently and picked it up. After sauteing the mushrooms with the pancetta, I whirled the kale and eggs in the Magic Bullet, poured that in the pan over the mushrooms, and added a bit of goat cheese (the white in the picture). I bought some crumbles for occasional use and it's delicious - tangy! It was a great breakfast and makes me want to have it again tomorrow. Maybe I will. (Not Whole30 because of the cheese.)

Thursday, January 2, 2014


I went a little bonkers last night. I have no explanation for it. I'm aiming for a clean day and an early night.

Pancetta, a small filet, eggs, and zucchini. Abbey got to have most of the pancetta. I just wasn't in the mood. We bought a food sealer and hare eating up the steaks and other meats that are in Ziploc bags. I found this tiny filet and decided to add it in the pan with the pancetta. It was pretty good. I don't think I'm a fan of beef with eggs, though. Live and learn!

Lunch was a banana and a Chia Pod. That stuff is odd. I'm not sure I like it, but I didn't feel hungry all day after eating it. Interesting. Coincidence?

Oh my word! I know I'm not doing thumbs up anymore, but this dinner deserved it. I cooked parsnips and celery root with chives and dried onions, then mashed them with ghee and coconut milk. To die for! I cooked the mushrooms in the pan with the steak. I've been buying full loins at Fresh Market and having them cut to order. Again, oh my word! If you're going to eat beef, this is the way to do it. My dinner tonight was better than anyone else on the planet had!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Quiet resolutions for 2014

I have two resolutions:

  1. Stick as close as possible to Whole30; definitely paleo. 
  2. Sit less, move more. 
That's it. I weigh in for on the January 6. I plan on splitting the pot at the end of the 6 months. 

For today, breakfast is a good place to start.
Broccoli slaw, eggs, Parma, and pancetta. Simple elegance. 

Lunch came and went so fast that there's not a photo to be had! I made some egg salad and ate it with a bowl of lettuce, mixing everything up. It was SO good. I have 4 more hard boiled eggs, so I see this in the future very soon. I also had a banana a bit later. 

Dinner is like chicken cacciatore. 
Left over beef that had been cooked in tomatoes and mushrooms, with sauteed chicken and green beans tossed in and cooked until it all was one meal instead of two. I added garlic powder and onion powder this time around. It was good enough that I wish I had 6 more plates' worth! But, no, no, no... that will not do. 

We did have a Blue Bell Dream Bar after dinner. 
It was good and worth it. 

I have an apple or dried fruit for later if I want something, but I'm going to hold off for now. I am so derned full!

No nap today. I got to sleep till almost 8 this morning and plan on going to bed at 10:30, so I should be good to go.