Sunday, October 30, 2011


I'll be returning home and to Tuesday WW meetings next week. I'm actually flying on Tuesday, but the following Tuesday, I'll be back to my 'slow and steady wins the race' progress. I'm looking forward to the puzzle of each day putting together the right foods in the right quantities with the right amount of exercise and sleep.

I have other tasks to accomplish when I get home. I have to re-join the Rec Center, sort out the orthopedist issue (mine has left town), go to the dermatology office for laser hair removal (finally!), follow up with my oral surgeon (things are healing), and in general, get back into life and hope to live it less on the couch than off.

I'm the turtle - and my eventually is every day that I wake up and see the sun. Still fat....for now.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Not feeling so great

I've had a wee touch of not feeling so pretty good the last three days. Don't know where I got it and don't care, but this morning, I woke up and said "three days is enough." We went out to breakfast and then Winnie took me to an urgent care center. My primary symptom is a sore throat. A really sore throat. I think there has been a bit of fever involved, but nothing to speak of. I had a little cough, but that's passed. Lastly, I've been really tired. The strep test was negative, but the doctor said that happens all the time and that she was going to treat me anyway. (I was there to get antibiotics, ya know?) So, I've had a medical adventure in Phoenix. Not what I was looking for, but hey, every day is a fun adventure, right?

I haven't counted points the last two days either. I think I'm doing okay based on not eating as much or as often. I took some of the erythromycin and some Claritin and will be feeling fine soon, so tomorrow, I'll be more into the keeping track of this and that.

And so it goes. The cycle of life and the bitch that yields the whip go on whether you want them to or not.

Still fat, but soon to feel better.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

A day of frosty goodness!

No, I did not have a Frosty, but I do like to deem something "frosty goodness" when it severely rocks. Today didn't severely rock, but in comparison to yesterday it did. Let's review, shall we?

Yesterday was my off day and we won't even talk about what I had for points. I did have chicken fried steak and mashed potatoes and some peppery gravy, but I did not finish the portion of either. I counted all daily points plus 7 for the week for Tuesday, as I always do. Though I ate crap and maybe a bit more than I normally do, I didn't go berserk. That is frosty goodness.

Today, I ate right on target, including a pork loin and yellow potatoes cooked in the crock pot and a side of broccoli. We even had ice cream for a nighttime snack, and I did not exceed my points. Again, frosty goodness!

Lastly, yesterday, I did something to my right leg/knee and it was gruesome. I'd even say the pain was excruciating and the polar opposite of frosty goodness. I got up at 6 a.m. this morning to see how it was and to let Winnie know if I thought I needed to be seen at the ER. I was able to hobble a whole lot better this morning. Satisfied that I didn't need a doctor and x-rays  and stuff (which, of course, I perseverated about all night), I went back to sleep (still in the recliner) and got up a few hours later because 6 a.m. is an obscene hour for anyone to be awake! My knee/leg was still sore, but better still. I made coffee and breakfast and worked at the kitchen table for a bit. When I got up from the chair in there, it was not fun. I moved back into the living room and into my friend, the recliner, and the up and down wasn't nearly as painful. In fact, as I stood and moved while cooking dinner, it got considerably better still. I took it easy, got my work done, and did a fair amount of stretching. Tonight, it was not fine, but better enough to deem it frosty goodness.

I'm on track, I'm healing this stupid leg thing, and all is well. The hot is not as hot as it was and Craig Ferguson is about to come on. What more could a girl ask for?

I've got plans for tomorrow - take it easy and heal some more, and plan my Friday yard sale map. I've got chicken on the brain, so I'll see what I can come up with to that end.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Double woe is me!

Woe number 1: Yesterday was meeting day. Without going into 100 details that don't make sense to anyone but me, no one would take my hours at work and I was unable to attend. I decided that it was okay. You're allowed to miss one meeting. So, I had my day off and am back on the wagon today. I also made sure I'm not working next Tuesday and I will definitely go then.

Woe number 2:  At some point late yesterday afternoon, after my shower and after I picked Winnie up from work, I did something to my right knee (the supposed good one). I have no idea what I did, but it hurt like bloody hell in the areas marked. I literally had to use my cane to get to the bathroom. I only brought the damned thing in case I needed it in airports. I was in hollering "fuck fuck fuck" mode every time I had to walk. At one point, I was sitting in the kitchen minding my own business, and here comes my crazy sister around the corner dancing like a frickin leprechaun, laughing up a storm. Cracks me up. We are such weirdos! It was her way of saying "ha ha, look what I can do that you can't." Remember, I'm 56 and she's 61. Behavior of the mature? NOT Anyway, I took ibuprofen and it didn't touch it. In another couple of hours, I took some Percocet and was able to get to sleep. I got up at 6 a.m. this morning while she was still here as I was having visions of the ER all night long. I can walk better today. Whatever I did is not yet gone, but it's better. Whew. I have too many things to do while I'm in Phoenix. I will not be a fucking invalid. Enough of that.

Today is slated to be a good day. Eat well, work hard, and let my knee rest. Still fat!

Monday, October 17, 2011

This morning is brought to you by the number....

6. Yes, 6. Six is the number of times I walked back and forth on the patio. That's one more than last time. I shall shoot for 7 tomorrow or Wednesday. Tomorrow is WW day. Eeep.

Today, I watch my intake. Oh yes I do. How many laps did you take on your exercise ride?

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Greek schmeek

A map of Greece. Who knew their food rocked so much? I finally used up the rest of my weekly allowance going out to a Greek restaurant today as well as a blood sugar low (grrrrr). Let's start with that, shall we?

I had a good breakfast and decided to eat light for lunch since I knew we were going out to eat tonight. I had a Trader Joe's brownie bar, but apparently that wasn't enough. About an hour later, I got the telltale sweats and shaking, and when I stood up, I was light headed. Yup, a low. I grabbed a couple cereal bars, got the BS back under control, and then headed for my tracker on line to write the bars in for today. Still not too bad.

We went to a Greek restaurant and the group decided on appetizers. I saw that they had cucumbers on the menu, so I got those thinking if I ate hummus, I'd eat it with the cucumbers rather than the pita that I was sure would be served. I did just that! I did take 1/4 of a pita and ate that in small bites with the hummus. Success. Then came the moussaka and man, it was good. I took the red sauce off the top as I really didn't like it with the eggplant/beef taste. At one point, I dug out the potatoes that were in this particular recipe and finished up the serving. I did not eat the sides.

The dessert menu was amazing. We all decided to get something. I opted for custard a la mode and it was excellent. I've had better, but this was way up there.

We got back to Winnie's place and I added it all up. As mentioned above, it took my points for the day that I had saved and also the remainder of my weekly. It was well worth it! I'll be careful for the remainder of my week and that's the way it goes!

On a side note, my dog apparently went a bit nuts today, going behind the loveseat, taking down curtains, jumping up on the kitchen counter and knocking things down and then jumping up on the table and knocking more things down. Earlier, she had intruded on Allison taking a shower. As it turns out, the UPS guy delivered a package while Allison was showering. Was the dog telling her that? Winnie suggested that maybe there was another robber on the property, specifically the back deck, and the dog was merely doing her job, trying to get to them. That would make sense except for the mess made on our table. I'll talk to Richard about it tomorrow, but the potential burglar sounds logical to me. Regardless, I hope the old girl is okay.

Overall, it was a successful day. I will work hard to make many more as successful as I can.

Still fat.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Eye opener and today's anti fat plans

Makes you think, don't it? That came in my Graph Jam email today and it was like, whoa! It was entitled "Eat ALL the Vegetables, Sistah!" and it definitely caught my eye. Eeep!

Plan for today has included a very good breakfast (egg salad on country white bread), a small snack (Trader Joe's brownie bar), and we're going out for dinner. I have 20ish points left, so if I make good choices for dinner, I'm right on track. 

I needed to get my own attention and put my eating in check, and that has been done. I'm still fat, but I have a good feeling!

Where's my mojo?

I'm on "vacation" sort of. I'm not home. I'm in Phoenix and visiting Winnie, working, yard saling, and vegging out. I went to a WW meeting on Tuesday and had gone up 1.6 pounds. I decided to set a goal to lose 5 pounds while I'm out here and have been tracking every bite. Tuesday is weigh day and I have about 10 weekly points left. That's unusual for me. I usually don't use quite that many weekly point. Food has been calling me very loudly and I'm not being careful about when I eat. I have been here since Monday and really have been doing an okay job of what I'm eating. I don't mean to say I've thrown caution completely to the wind, but it's close. I picked up good foods and snacks to eat and plan on continuing to eat them. I intro'd Winnie to cauliflower and mashed potatoes. We had that with a porterhouse steak that was totally trimmed and cut up in tiny pieces and stir fried. Anyway.... I'm still fat and really need to be cautious not to let this get away from me.

Full disclosure.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Shrinking Wordle.

Here's a Wordle for ya. It's a composite of the blog and other than the fact that I can't find "still fat" on it, it looks pretty good!

Boston Market, is there anything they can't do?

I had a pretty good WW day. It was very formal planning for breakfast and lunch (strawberries and Havarti cheese rules!) and then I ended up needing to run an errand around dinnertime. I knew that I was going to have a blood sugar low if I didn't have something 'carby' fairly soon, so I grabbed a leftover Boston Market cornbread to have on the road.

When I got back, it was 8:15, so I decided to have another leftover - the sweet potatoes! This stuff is like sweet potato pie without a crust. I had plenty of points left for the day, so I wasn't "cheating." Amazing and delicious and a tiny bit nutritious (ha!).

My dinner plans had included stir fry steak and mashed cauliflower. Ooops, not even close. I'll make that tomorrow for sure.

Overall, I'm still fat and it's been a great day. A wee little walk, pretty good food compliance, and plenty of rest.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Walk some more, dammit!

I got out and walked the patio today. 10 laps. That was my goal. it's a tiny one, but if I don't do it, I may as well just throw my hands up and say "fuckit."

10 tiny laps. 5 backs and forths. God, think about that. There's no distance at all involved there, but the last 4 were a challenge. I bet I can do this again tonight or this afternoon if it's not too hot and if not then, definitely in the morning. It's supposed to be 100° at some point today. It's not there yet, so this was a good time to get out.

This fucking fat on my body is like a noose around my neck. If I keep it, it will surely kill me. If I let it continue to grow, it will certainly choke me out. I'm not ready for that, so I will walk.

On the road

I flew to Phoenix on Monday, and boy are my arms tired. Okay, old joke. Not even a particularly good joke. But, that's not why you came. I had a few days before travel of angst and anticipation, and I probably didn't follow the program as well as I could have. I paid attention to what I was eating, but threw caution to the wind a few times. On Monday, I did eat a proper breakfast and what they served on the plane for lunch, and then Winnie and I had some spaghetti for dinner. My mouth is still not 100%, so I've been cautious about how I eat and what texture the foods have, but that doesn't mean I should have had that coffee ice cream for dessert. Eh.

I'm in Phoenix until November 1 and my long term goal as far as weight goes is to lose 5 pounds while I'm here. It's a doable goal. Toward that end, I attended Weight Watchers here today. Interestingly, the Williamsburg office is much more advanced than the Phoenix regional office! I don't carry my monthly pass with me and therefore, as they are sans computer systems, I had to discuss coming in and offered to pay, etc., but they did see that I was an active member by looking at my old monthly pass and my weigh in card. I weighed and had gained 1.6 pounds. I'm not 100% distraught by that. I'm not pleased, but it's what I expected. It's actually better than I expected and considering my lack of attention to detail leading up to today, it's all good. The leader was a bit perky for my liking, but it was okay.

We talked about making your home Weight Watchers friendly and I got to talk about Hurricane Irene causing our refrigerator and freezer food to go bad, so it was a clean slate for me. When I was asked how long we were out of power, I said "only four days." The room went "GASP" all at once and the leader said, "ONLY four days?" They don't get hurricanes in Phoenix!

After the meeting, I went to the Sprint store to figure out what's up with my phone. I had to leave it and return in a couple hours. Trader Joe's is right next door, so I bought some sandwich makings, coffee, polenta, and some fruits and veggies, and headed back home. I was so tired from travel that I really would have liked a nap, but my trusty alarm clock (my phone!) was not with me. Argh. I went back after a while, got the phone, picked up Winnie, and we grabbed some Boston Market for dinner. Not bad.

Now it's late and I'm pooped. I'm very proud of myself for going to the meeting. I'm also pleased that my weight gain was minimal. I have good foods and a beautiful surrounding to enjoy for the next few weeks, and so, though I'm still fat, here I am singing my praises.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Weigh In

That there is 11 exclamation points. That's about how many I felt after weigh in. Why? I'm down a total of 11 pounds. I got my second 5-pound star. This is after a week of having had oral surgery and still not able to eat mechanically well, having a couple of days of primarily ice cream, and very little exercise. Why? Because I'm still eating less than I once was and I'm paying attention to exactly what's going in me. I've had beans, potatoes, pasta, and other very soft foods. I've tracked 5 out of 7 days. I've not gotten the best sleep of my life, sleeping in the recliner as I am, but that will improve soon. The bottom line is that I'm still obsessed and I'm still working Weight Watchers to beat the band. I have a meeting location in Phoenix and plan on attending on Tuesdays so I keep my same weigh-in day. I told the leader and my weigh-in lady that I'm not quitting, but will be attending out of town. I just feel good and am right proud of myself to tell the truth. 

There was a woman today who announced her 50-pound weight loss as of this week. I silently said "I'm 1/5th of the way there!" while applauding her success. 

I am not some kind of crazy evangelist, but I do like going to the meetings. I told Richard today that I'm not sure if it's because time goes by faster now, but waiting till Tuesday to have a "forbidden" item was no big deal anymore. I also discussed with him that my motivation is quite different at the moment - age and my knee are huge motivators. I don't have youth on my side nor the never-ending resilience that I once had. I also have a 100K knee that I need to take care of and treat with kid gloves so that I can use it properly and get another one to match it. By age 58, I hope to be as active as I ever was with a good center of gravity and balance. 

Overall, I felt damned giddy earlier. I'm still fat; there's no doubt about that. I'm dealing with it, one mini step at a time and each mini step is a huge accomplishment.

Monday, October 3, 2011


Well, I think I've been sticking to WW this week. I have been counting points the past two days, but Thursday and Friday, I simply put in the maximum amount for the day. I was on ice cream and yogurt pretty much. Friday, I had a cheese open face sandwich, but that didn't work too well.

Thursday, I had a chunk of tissue removed from the roof of my mouth and grafted to the lower gum in the front center to provide structure and prolong the life of my front teeth on the bottom. I've always had a "long" tooth, but recently, I've had a few problems with the tissue between the lip and gum at that tooth. I had it lasered a while back, but that grew back. So, this was the next step. I have stitches in the roof of my mouth and the front of my mouth and some of them are trussed around teeth on the bottom, so it's like chicken between my teeth.

Yesterday, I cooked some high fiber pasta and used a bit of spaghetti sauce and today, I had some fish and the center of some pierogies (the outer part was too crunchy). I'm not allowed to take a bite out of something like having a sandwich, but I can bite things and eat them on the side in the back. When the roof of my mouth heals, I will have a little more freedom. I suspect it will be a while before I eat normally again.

I've tried to keep up with fruits (canned) and some healthier fare, especially today. This morning, I made some French toast and ate all but the crust. Little bites. I may do that again tomorrow. I have a can of beans that I might do something with tomorrow too.

While I'm whining, I'm sleeping in the recliner right now because I can't sleep with my face on the pillow for a while. The only time there is pain is when I press on the lower part of my mouth, so I avoid that at all costs right now. I have Vicodin, but I don't need it. I took ibuprofen the first day. What a trooper.

So, I've kept Weight Watchers in mind, but the first two days, I kept ice cream in mind more. I have a couple yogurts left and when they're gone, I'll get more. That's a good complement with the canned fruit. I may stop by Harry and David's and get a couple juicy pears that I can eat with a spoon. Potatoes and veggie mashes are on tap as well.

I have no clue whether I will have lost weight when I go in Tuesday or not, but I know I've given it my college try. I have weight to lose and I'm doing it. If this is a stall, it'll be a minor temporary stall for sure.