Thursday, August 11, 2011

Is there anything a hand blender can't do?

I planned my breakfast last night before I went to bed. Part of that was strawberry fluff. I put a cup of skim milk in a glass with a packet of sweetener, then cut up 5 strawberries and put them in. I grabbed the hand blender and blended it all up. I left the blender on for a while longer and the drink got fluffier and fluffier to the point of almost whipped cream. I put in a straw and dayum, major deliciousness. This is something I will absolutely try again. It sure made milk a little more drinkable and the drink was so full of air that it was huge!

I've used the hand blender with vegetables to mix them with a potato or two for a nice mash.

What else can I do with this magical toy?

Ever so important.

Donna: Yeah, it's all good. I just hate imposing limits, but they're not really limits. You know?

Linda: No, they're not. It's just making decisions.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Honey buns are not your friend

Looks innocent enough, doesn't it? Meet one of my old friends. The honey bun. Iced only please. I used to grab those by the twos and eat them on the run as a snack. The 7-11 brand and Entenmann's seem to be the best to me, so either is fine.

The nice thing about Weight Watchers is that you can have what you want. It may not be what you need, but if you count every morsel, you can have it.

After exercise class today, I decided I wanted a honey bun. I hadn't had breakfast, was hungry, and well, I was stopping to get a drink anyway, right? So, I bought one. I also made a deal with myself that I'd save the wrapper and track it when I got home to keep myself honest and on the right path. I had such a crappy day yesterday attitude wise that I figured it was okay to go the route of no nutrition at all. Eyes wide open, I bought it. Eyes wide open, I ate it. Eyes wide open, I tracked it. Welcome to the reality of a honey bun - 19 points. If you are at goal and using a 29-point day, you're about done for the day.

The processing began as soon as I journaled the details. Was this worth it? Do I really want to spend a day's allotment on empty honey bun calories? Do I need an item that is 97 g of carbohydrates in one fell swoop? Will I do this again? I ate 46% of my points just like that.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Not a happy person tonight

That's me not giving a shit. Let's catch up.

Sunday, we did Outback. Not so bad, but I got and ate two pieces of carrot cake. While I did that, I also only ate half my steak and half the potato and half the mushrooms. That makes no sense. The next day was weigh-in at Weight Watchers. I lost 0.6 pounds. I lost. that's the main thing. I shopped after and picked up veggies, etc. for the week. Yesterday was an off day, but not so off that I didn't log all my points plus the 7 weekly.

Today, I'm back on track. I've loved my day. I've enjoyed every bit of eating I've done but now I'm "famished," while not being hungry at all. I've enjoyed some grapes tonight and some sugar free jello. I'm not hungry. I've had good food and good nutrition all day. What the fuck is up with wanting to eat for no reason.

Little bump in the road today, but it shouldn't matter. A guy wrote and said his Amazon purchase doesn't work and so I refunded him. No biggie. It was $30. I shouldn't let that bother me.

 Tomorrow is water exercise class. I have to get gas first. Again, another small bump.

I can't let little shit bug me .This is life in action and I have 2 pounds to lose by Monday. I will not be one of those 0.5 pound losers. I have a life to live.

Oh fuck a duck. I want it all right now.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Y U Rationalize?

A lot of internet memes include "Y U No...." but today, it's not a matter of "no;" it's a matter of my master rationalization skills. Mad skills. I gottem. Momentarily, I'm in an "I don't give a shit" space, so came here instead.

When I rationalize, I think such things as "only tonight" or "one evening's worth of fuckups won't matter" or "so what if I screw up on one day; who's going to know?" Um, I'll know. Only tonight = tonight, tomorrow night, the night after, etc. One evening's worth of fuckups DO matter. I have a finite number of "screw up" points for the weekly total and I don't want to blow them on a no reason binge. Spin, spin, spin!

Reality - I want to age and walk and move more smoothly. There's one way to get there and that is to maintain my stubborn resolve with some sort of life long food change and that, for now, is Weight Watchers.

It's too early for me to have the serious bout of munchies that I seem to be experiencing. I had a great dinner (steak, mushrooms, and pasta) and snacks after (WW ginger cookies), and I'm not hungry, not in the lease, and yet, here I am, wanting something totally forbidden. Or at least wanting something in a huge quantity, even if it's not forbidden. I have the grade A, full blown munchies. I will fight this. It's like wanting a cigarette. Those urges can be very, very strong, and yet I get through them somehow. Oh lordie, how come life sometimes throws us these fucking curve balls?

I have a snack planned for later and I'll just have to wait for that.

Food Stuff

Shredded lettuce in a bag. How simple is that? I'm sure it's more expensive than cutting it up myself, but the reality is that I'm not going to do it myself. But for both lunch and dinner today, I'm having a handful of shredded lettuce - lunch with a sandwich and dinner with a steak. Crunch, decent taste, and bulk. There you go. A great food to have while I'm learning what I can and cannot eat to make my goals  become reality.

Breakfast was simple. Bagel thins with spreadable brie, topped with strawberries that had been cut up. Strawberries are the bomb diggity right now, so I'm trying to have them while they're super sweet without adding sugar. Breakfast was 6 points.

No mid-day snack because I didn't get up till 10:30, but lunch, just finished, was amazing. I made a sandwich with chicken, Havarti, a touch of mayo, and a handful of the above-mentioned lettuce dashed with salt and pepper. I made a fruit salad to go with it: Chopped apple, 2 stalks of celery chopped, a tablespoon of chopped pecans, 2 strawberries cut into small pieces, and a tablespoon or so of the fruit dip I use. Lunch was 12 points.

I have a 5-point snack planned (Weight Watchers ginger cookies and skim milk) along with an 8- to 10-point dinner, depending on the size of the steak when I weigh it.

I'm in an okay space today. I am still obsessed and that's a good thing.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Weigh in after first week

Meeting day. -5.6 pounds. That's about right for week one.

This week's goals include remaining obsessed and keeping the big picture in sight - I want to age and I want to walk and I want to have surgery number 2. All three of those require weight loss and I can certainly do that. Richard said he's going to be "on my case" and I'm okay with that.

I stopped on the way home and picked up watermelon, shredded lettuce, shredded cabbage, cherries, bananas, and a few other items to help with the week ahead, including yogurt covered pretzels. They seemed to be a good cheat food last week. Or should that be "treat?" It was treats and snacks as the topic this week. I'm not sure I'm nuts about the leader today, but I chose this time of day and this day of the week, so 2 out of 3 ain't bad. It's my motivation that counts, not hers.

Realistically, I am aiming for 2 pounds next week. Wishfully, I'm aiming for almost 4 to get out of the 300s. That may take 2 weeks. Who knows.

Congrats, self. You get to not hate yourself today. Look in the mirror and see the reality and know that the reality is 5 pounds less than last week's reality.